School again?

“Nanti izZa siap, boleh la copy dari izZA”, at first I don’t mind when I heard this. But I heard it too many times after that. I laugh myself. What kind of people are they?

“IzZa ade kereta kan, nanti boleh la kite pegi situ sini”… when they know I drive to the school.

”Nanti datang amik kitorang depan asrama kitorang ye”… when I offer them to drive to KBMall.

”izZa ade kamera kan, amik la gambar, nanti boleh kitorang amik ngan izZa”.. when I take out the camera from my handbag.

that’s perhaps forgivable as i have all the stuff and they don’t. But..

” kitorang balik dulu, penat. izZa buat la dulu ye. Nanti kalau kami tak sempat buat, boleh copy izZa punya”… What the…!!!!

”ala, kesiannya izZa buat sorang2”… stop that fake sympathy. I dont need it.

”izZa pergi la sorang2, tak larat la nak jalan”… when i asked them to accompany me for any of my bussiness.

”taknak la pergi, nanti dorang suruh kita buat kerja”.. but what happen in front of the other teachers? Really funny. I can see the real faking them. Like turning 180 degree.

I don’t mind sharing. I also don’t really mind helping. But when sharing is zero, get out of my sight!! Taking advantages 100%. Better I do it alone! That’s what happens these days. In the end, I did it alone. Like I have no ROS-mate. And I wonder if in the end they’ll come to me, smiling all the way and said “IzZa dah siap kan, nak copy boleh?”

I can be kind, ONLY towards people who are kind to me. Enough said.

at behid, the third from the right is my sis.the skinny one. And me? Try to find yourself. huhu..

This time of ROS-ing is very challenging. Like I said before. But after times, I feel like I can be there if I want. I mean the school can accept me if I try to make them accept me

I began to like this school which I hate most 7 years ago.haha… The teachers are so kind. The ustaz and Ustazah. No discrimination even though the other two ROS-mate is wearing “tudung labuh” and I’m the only one who wears like what I wear as usual. Hehe.. The students are really helpful even for many times they called me “Kak” instead of “Cikgu”. For many times I need to say “ Er, I’m a teacher” and they keep saying sorry. Hehe.. no big deal. But what surprise me, my sis’s friend asked my sis “is that ur mum?” .. What??!!

The first day I was there.. I was waiting for my friend in front of the toilet. And here comes 2 girls, I mean students walking in front of me. I smiled like what I always do. Because as a newbie I need to smile a lot here and there. Because smile is a you-can-approach- me sign. While she walks, without any crack of smiles on her face, she stares at me up and down with an intense glare.. Like I’m doing wrong!! Is this what we called a student? If she don’t want to treat me as a teacher, at least treat me as a visitor.

The biggest challenge awaits me next week where I have to TEACH them chemistry. I never did it before!! OMG! Luckily, the topic given to me is quite easy. Covalent bond. I really need to study before it. Huhu.. or else, I’m dead meat.

I was placed at Bilik Guru but I don’t like to stay there. In the end, I hang out with some teachers at Lab’s preparation room. Hehe.. and I overheard many stories. The untold stories. Haha.. well, if I’m at Bilik Guru, the stories are more beyond my level to reach.

But just let me keep all the stories. Haha.. to sum up, i began to like this school

I know that i’m cute that u barely find me. hahaha.. well, i’m a teacher among the prefects. Hm, i dont like to dress formally like this but i have to.huhu.. But not to worry, no make-up.haha…

I pray that i can live up to their expectations. I’ll try my best. Gambarimasu!!

To all my friends who are in the same boat with me, no matter where u are in this globe.. Minna-san, gambarimasho!!

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